I am MISSING….

I was a fun loving person, used to believe in living every moment of life. Yes, you read it right. I WAS…

I am happily married and blessed with two wonderful baby girls.

I love spending time with them, taking care of them, listening to their stories, playing with them, pretty much what any parent would love to do with their children.

The last over two and a half years, I was enjoying every minute of my life with them.

I was a full time home maker. My husband teases me by calling me a Personal Assistant to my children.

Now, I have started working. I love my job. I love the way my work place lets be maintain a balance between my personal and professional life.

I have got no regrets. But, wait…no regrets?

Before taking the break in my career, I had my elder daughter. Still I was fun loving. I used to walk, go on holidays, talk and mingle easily with everyone around.

I was one of the fun loving people in my circle, whose presence could be easily noticed and was unavoidable.

What changed now?

I don’t want to go on vacations, I am not able to talk and mingle freely with people around.

Though in a crowd, I prefer to stay silent and just observe and listen, but no talk.

I find it difficult to live and laugh the way I used to..

This career break has broken the fun loving me and turned me into a rather boring person, i guess..

I have stopped being ME and always think about family only.

I am trying to change myself, such that I could be ME….but, that ME is lost…can anyone help me find her?